I’m expected to graduate in May 2016. That word "expected" is heavily loaded with more meaning than I feel am ready to handle right now. I am expected to know by May what I want to do for the rest of my life and I am nowhere near ready to make that decision, but no pressure, right?
I've only just figured out that marketing was the right fit for me as far as majors go and I wish I had more time to explore it and all that it has to offer, but that's life, right? It seems like we're always wishing we had more time.
If you’re getting the sense that I am slightly scared and feel like I’m riding a bike blindfolded on the highway of life than I am more transparent than I thought. However, there is a huge part of me that loves that feeling of uncertainty and not really knowing where I will end up because what fun would life be if everything was already mapped out for you with no room for detours?
Honestly, all the biggest decisions I've ever made in my life I've dived in head first without really knowing what the outcome would be and I'm here to say that every time I've ever done that has resulted in something good and has made my life so much more exciting and fulfilling knowing that I took a chance and didn't have to look back later in life and ask myself, what would of came of that if I had just taken the leap?
I have always been someone who has had a broad spectrum of interests and I've never wanted to limit myself by just choosing one. But if I've learned anything from these last four years where I felt like I went from 18 to 30 years old is that you can't always have everything you want. At least not all at once.
I'm not saying that you should ever give up something that you love or lose that passion that drives you. You just have to find a way to juggle your interests. For example, I love writing, people, and fashion and it took me a while before I fully grasped the concept that I can have everything I want. I just have to put in the work and the rest will follow.
While the thought of graduating is really scary, and it's a fear that I'm all too familiar with. It's the same fear that made me leap in the past into challenges that have shaped me and inevitably made me grow in ways that I never would have if I didn't have that constant drive powered by fear to turn my dreams into a reality.
As I'm closing my college chapter at LIM College, I realize that the College has prepared me for the next chapter in my life in so many ways, I am not sure if I will ever be able to thank everyone in the way that they deserve. I think the most important thing I have learned is that you can be given all the tools, but no one can use the tools for you, that's up to you!